Monday, November 28, 2005

New Office

Well today was the first day at the new job. I am only working a few hours a day until the beginning of the year. The painters were just finishing up my office. All their gear was in the outer part of my office so I did not take a picture of that. One guy was painting the bathroom so I did not get a picture of that either. I hope you all will keep me in your thoughts because as I sat at my new desk (btw I like my old desk better) second guessing my decision; I am a bit worried.

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Traditional Turkey Dinner

Well today we are having a traditional turkey dinner. On Thanksgiving we went to a fine dining restaurant for a wonderful buffet. WOW it was awesome!!

We have eaten there before on Thanksgiving and enjoyed it. We decided to go to the restaurant because we wanted to enjoy our family being together without anyone having to work their fingers to the bone. The buffet was wonderful; turkey, ham, prime rib, salmon, steamed shrimp, cheese (many choices) & crackers, every side dish you could ask for and the dessert table *wipes the drool as I remember* was beautiful!! I can not say the dessert was good or bad because I was so full I was not able to edulge myself. But everyone else said the desserts were beyond delicious. We had such a wonderful day. I love when my mom, my family and my brother's family get together. The kids get along great and we can visit with no problems from the 5 kids. They arrived early in the morning and left early evening to return home. They live approximately 2.5 hours away. When we returned home from the restaurant we were sitting around all stuffed (fat, dumb and happy) everyone was talking about their favorite food or dessert and my son with a pout on his face (he is very good at this look because he has big dark brown deer eyes with long lashes) said it was good but I missed having a traditional Thanksgiving dinner. I said the restaurant had everything you could possibly want traditional and not so traditional, his response was yes I know but it is not the same. Sighs deeply so today I am making our family a traditional Thanksgiving dinner. My mom is going to come over and we are having a big Turkey dinner. ughhhh I have been up early baking a pumpkin and apple pie, making stuffing and I just stuck the turkey in the oven. I was thinking bout Lori and her post Un-American, she was ridiculed for not having turkey on Thanksgiving by an acquaintance. I am not a big fan of turkey anyway so not having a traditional Thanksgiving dinner is fine by me. At the restaurant I ate the prime rib, walked right past the line for Turkey and the carver gave me a nice piece, mmmmnnn was soooo good!!!!!!!! But... with my son's reaction I guess it is much less about the food but about sitting around the table at home with family and friends. Because he could have had all kinds of traditional food at the restaurant but what he really wanted was a big dinner at home.

Thursday, November 24, 2005


Wishes All My Friends A Wonderful Holiday!!

However You Wish to Celebrate it!!!!

Picture snagged from morningstar's blog

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Changing Jobs

As I sit at my desk on Monday morning cursing the short week, I received a phone call from a company that was interested in interviewing me for a position with their company. I was a little shocked well okay ALOT shocked!! They asked me if I had the opportunity to stop by for an interview later that afternoon. I said well I do not have my resume with me, I am wearing jeans, no makeup, hair not so great because it was raining; they said just come in. Well I agreed to arrive later to be interviewed for the job. Much to my amazement they offered me the job and my head was spinning. I was expecting the three interviewers to request my resume so they could call my previous employers and references blah blah... Well I sat in my car, head spinning and not sure what to do. I called my wonderful friend who's melodic voice calmed me right down. He is such an amazing friend and means the world to me. I also called him first when I found out my grandmother died. I knew in my heart he would give me exactly what I needed, a true friend who really cared about me. (Side note: with the death of my grandmother I saw who my true friends are and who I have been wasting my time on... a little advice when someone's loved one dies give your condolences regardless of your beliefs, religious affiliation or lack thereof... just tell them you are sorry for their loss it will mean the world to them!!!) Okay pops a Ritalin and gets back on subject. Well my friend with his melodic voice mmnnn calmed me right down. He just has such a kind way about him. Well after my special friend calmed me down, I realized I had much to think about. I was offered 2 dollars more an hour then I am presently making and that is nice but to make the change to another company I was still unsure. My new office is amazing!!! I kept thinking hmmm I think this office is calling my name!!! I am going to take some pictures of it on Monday. My office is the entire lower level, private bathroom and my desk sits next to a sliding glass door that opens onto a deck that over looks the water. Wellllllllllllllllllllllllllllll..... Even though the office is amazing and compared to my drafty office where I work now, this office is the mansion of offices.. I was not completely sure about leaving my current job because I really like it. hehe... Well I talked to one of the interviewers, she could feel my angst and she offered me another dollar and then after six months another dollar, so that will put me making 4 more dollars an hour, plus the benefit package is much better than my current position. So Tuesday I gave 5 weeks notice I will officially change companies at the beginning of the year. I am going to put a few hours in each day at the new company so the transition will be smooth. I hope the pictures of my new office will turn out because I would like to share them with my blogging buddies.

Monday, November 21, 2005

Answers to Questions About Me

First I would like to thank everyone who responded!

Secondly please stop by and see Seeker's questions and answers, they are fantastic!! click here
1. Does your hubby know about your D/s life?
My husband does not know about my attraction hmmm maybe addiction to this lifestyle.
2. You seem like a strong willed woman, how difficult is it to become a submissive once you have worked your entire life to be who you are?
I am a very strong willed woman, sometimes a bit too strong willed I believe. hehe I am in a position of authority at work, also home ~winks~ everything is my responsibility and to be completely honest with you I enjoy that immensely. I am a submissive to only One, no others. I guess that is the difference, it is so different than my entire life that I absolutely love it. I keep this a secret from my husband because it is one part of me that I have for myself. Being a wife and mom, I have no privacy, the kids barge in showers, bathroom, phone calls, their needs are immediate. They go in my drawers, closet, desk and do not realize it is so violating at times. So this is something that I do not share with my family or friends. It is not hard at all being a submissive, actually it is wonderful to give someone the control and responsibility. If you give the gift of submission to a true Master/Dominant and not a wannabe who thinks it is all about his needs, his desires and sex, then it is an amazingly beautiful relationship. The Dominant gains strength by his submissive and the submissive find the one person in this world who loves and cherishes her like no other. It is the most initimate and loving relationship when the two people are true and honest.
3. Whats your favorite thing to do when you find yourself totally alone, with nothing to do? To snuggle on the couch with my doggie and a soft blanket watching feel good no thinking movies e.g. 50 First Dates, 13 to 30, Ever After, Shrek, anything that requires no thought... I just love to enjoy watching a movie when it is completely quiet with no interruptions.

1.) If you could HAVE that "one thing" you have wanted your entire life but once you except it someone you have never met living on the other side of the world would LOSE their "one thing" at the same exact time. Would you except yours?
WOW Great question James, I had to really think about this, and I would have to sadly decline mine. I would not enjoy it knowing that someone else lost theirs, the guilt would be overwhelming.
2.) If you were given the opportunity to make the opposite decision about something in your life what would it be?
I have two answers. Number one I would not have spoiled my daughter so much in her earlier life. Number two I would have let my daughter join cheerleading when she was little. I always held her back from doing cheerleading and three years ago she came to me with application form filled out in hand, said take me to register or I will have my dad take me. It has been the best thing for her. She is an amazing cheerleader and I think she would have so much more confidence in herself if she has been cheerleading for many years. She just made the elite competition team and we are so happy but I am so very sorry I held her back for 6 years, I just did not think it would be good for her. That is my biggest regret in life.
3.)If you only had three choices of someone to be, which one would you pick
a.) Dominatrix
b.) Geisha
c.) Mafia Wife
CCCCCCCCCCCCCCCC hehehe Most definitely C, James..

Jim C.
1. What's the most daring thing you've ever done?
Well I wish I could say it was some crazy sexual escapade but I am pretty private. I am much more daring behind closed doors than out in public. Chuckles I think that is because I tend to lean towards the shy side. So I would have to say the most daring thing I have ever done is given birth twice without any medication whatsoever completely natural, ouchies yes feel every single thing. Secondly I did give my husband a blow job outside his home right before we got married but he lived on a large piece of property so there was no one around for miles.
2. If you could invite 5 people to dinner who would they be (alive, dead, fiction, non-fiction - whatever)
non family members:Jesus, Claude Monet, Johann Sebastian Bach, Saint Anthony, Pope John Paul
family members: Nana, Poppy, Aunt Sue, Mark and my friend Debbie Hogan who was murdered by one of our neighbors when we were in the fifth grade. (all have passed on)
3) What is your favorite fantasy (doesn't have to be sexual)
I often fantasize about winning the lottery (BIG) paying off all my bills, buy a large piece of property on the island where I live, right on the water and building three homes; one for my mother, one for my family and one for my brother's family. I can not imagine anything better than all of us living right next to each other.

1) If you could change one thing on your body what would it be. Hmmmmm head to toe hehehe.. I think I would say my hands and feet, I have short fat little fingers and toes and I would love to have slender hands and feet with long fingers and toes.
2) Is there something you always wanted to do but never found the courage to do it.
Public Speaking - I am so shy that I could never find the courage to speak in public.
3) What was you feeling the day you found out you was pregnant with your children (sorry 2 in 1 question).
My husband and I tried to get pregnant for 2.5 years with no luck. As soon as we decided to put off getting pregnant for another 9 months to kind of regroup. I found out I was pregnant. I was BEYOND elated. I just could not believe it. I had the pregnancy test and was going to do it in the morning. I was too excited to sleep so I read the test and it said you had to have at least 5 hours of urine before doing the test. I sat watching the clock and at 2am I performed the test and it was BLUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I said to myself I would tell hubby when he woke up. I sat looking at him for 10 minutes then woke him up. We celebrated. Now my son was a totally different story, we planned to have the kids 5 years apart. When she was going off to Kindergarten I would be pregnant... blah blah blah hehehe God had other plans for us. Well my son was a pull out baby, we can only imagine the little turkey snuck in in the pre ejaculation fluid giggles. Well when my daughter was 8 months old I worked at a doctor's office. One of my patients brought me this lemon twist thing, one bite and I thought OMG I am pregnant. Everyone was laughing thought I was so cute yeah right you are pregnant and I insisted I was pregnant, so my friend did a pregnancy test when she came out of the lab her eyes were so big. I burst out crying. (I still feel guilty about this) I called my husband and he said it will be fine why are you crying? I said we have a baby and she was suppose to be 5 years old when I get pregnant again. *he laughed* He said oh it will be great one baby in the highchair when she is done the next baby goes in, when she is out of her crib the next baby goes into the crib. (Well we ended up with two cribs and two highchairs but it was awesome )I sat at my desk smiling and I knew it would be fine and then the excitement filtered in and I never looked back. He was the greatest well timed surpise in our life!!!

Still Searching
1) Favourite childhood memory?
I went to Disney on the Auto Train, I would say I was 10ish. There was a singer on the train in one of the cars. So our family went to enjoy the entertainment. He was asking for requests and I had my mom ask him to sing Sweet Caroline for me. So he very excitedly said oh is your name Caroline? I said no my name is Michele but my friend's name is Caroline. He started singing Sweet Caroline. I remember feeling so happy to hear him sing something I requested (even though I had my mom ask). Then he said now for the most important song of the night and he began singing Michele my Belle. I was so embarrassed. Well for the rest of the trip everyone on the train knew my name, they were saying hi Michele up and down the train. Of course my brother and I were walking car to car in search of an adventure. When the train arrived in Florida, we gathered our belongings and headed out to claim our car. The singer was waiting for me at the train station and I jumped into his arms. He hugged me tight and said I was his most favorite audience member ever. I remember him telling me he would remember me forever. chuckles back then I really believed it. For that moment in my life I felt special.
2) Age?
I turned GULPS 38 in August.
3) Why did you start this blog?
I began writing my blog because I was heartbroken and betrayed; I had nowhere to turn and so many things to get out of my head. So I started my blog to free my mind.

1. What is your favorite position having sex? not so easy .. and why is it your favorite position?
~ooo blushes a bit~ Most definitely doggie style!! It hits that WOW button just perfectly and leaves lots of room for extra curricular activities; e.g. playful spanking, hair pulling, you can go easy and slow or hard, deep and fast...
2. Your stuck on a deserted island with only one other person (male or female) and you had to have sex with them to re-populate earth .. who would it be?
Most definitely my husband because we make such beautiful babies (grinz wickedly you have seen my beauties dont you agree??? hehe)!!
Now if it was just for sex Alan Jackson please!! with a little Billy Joe Armstrong on the side.

3. Morning sex, afternoon sex, or evening sex? and why?
I am an equal opportunity sexual encounter person, anytime is good for me. So I will chose all three because there is no bad time to have sex and I truly enjoy them all. Morning sex is great because everyone is so snuggley in the morning and you are already in bed. Afternoon sex is fantastic because if you have the opportunity to be in bed mid afternoon then you have plenty of time for lots of sex. Evening sex is great because the day is finished, no worries and mmmn what a way to end the day. But I will try to skip the late night sex because once I have sex it energizes me and then I am up half the night.

Saturday, November 19, 2005

We Are The Champions

We won the championship today!!! We won our playoff games and I did not blog because I did not want to jinx it. But today was the end and we finished 11 and o yup yup UNDEFEATED!!!!!! WOW it was so exciting... What a game... Halftime it was still 0 to 0 very frustrating game. I am hoarse from yelling. They double and tripled teamed my boy almost every play. He busted through with a few sacks and also he made a great play that resulted in a fumble. Yes He is AMAZING!!!!! and I am sooooo NOT prejudice... hehe Well they came back from halftime and ROCKED!!! They ended up winning 20 to nothing.

We have been singing We are the Champions since 2pm today!!!!!!!!!!!!

PS: Son's team's colors are Red and Black

PSS: I will post all the answers to the questions about me at one time. I am going to give it a few days because I know some of my friends do not blog on the weekends.

Personal Information About Me

Thank you to Seeker who I shamelessly snatched this idea from.

I have been suffering from writer's block lately, which I am sure anyone who reads my blog frequently can tell. The last thing I wrote was about my grandmother. I just can not seem to find anything to write about. I felt insulted recently and it seems to have thrown me into doubt and second thoughts about my blog. Well I am trying to put this behind me so I can enjoy writing in my blog again. I received an email from my brother that I was going to cut and paste into a blog entry. But I read Seeker's blog and thought what a great idea! I do have a firm belief that this is my blog and I can write whatever I please with no concern about anyone else's opinion. I guess I just have to recover from the curve ball that whacked me in the head.

Questions about me... Stolen from Seeker (You all should pop over to his blog click here for erotic and sensual writings. The Seeker is AMAZING!!! it is like nothing I have ever read before)

So, here it is:
1. Ask me 3 questions. Any 3, no matter how personal, private or random. (Exceptions are my identity or questions to lead to my identity.)
2. I have to answer them honestly. I will answer them all (within reason).

Gulps I hope this does not open Pandora's box. hehe Or I may just see that no one really wants to know anything about me.

Monday, November 14, 2005

A Love Story

A Love Story.

I will seek and find you . . .
I shall take you to bed and have my way with you.
I will make you ache, shake & sweat until you moan & groan.
I will make you beg for mercy, beg for me to stop.
I will exhaust you to the point that you will be relieved when I'm finished with you.
And, when I am finished, you will be weak for days.

All my love,
The Flu
Now, Get Your Mind Out Of The Gutter And Go Get Your FLU SHOT !!!!

Saturday, November 12, 2005

What Element Are You?

Your Element is Fire

Your power color: red

Your energy: hot

Your season: spring

Like a fire, you are full of power and light.
A born leader, you easily draw people toward you.
You are full of courage and usually up for anything dangerous.
You have a huge ego and love to be the center of attention.
Snatched from Jim C

Friday, November 11, 2005


I would like to extend my heartfelt thank you to all service men and women; past, present and future for protecting us and keeping our freedom safe. I also would like to send my deepest sympathies to every one who has lost a family member, loved one, or friend to a war.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Thank You James

JPA posted this in the comment section on the post about my grandmother. It brought me to tears and I wanted to thank James for sharing the wonderful poem. James is the very lucky brother of two very sexy twin sisters. James has the honor of calling Lori and Linda sisters. Just the same, Lori and Linda have the honor of calling James brother.

Thank you very much James!!!

I thought I saw her today
Laughing with all her happiness
I thought I heard her today
But it was only the wind
I asked God if I could have her back
I don’t think He heard me
I asked God to give her life back
He asked me why
Because I love her and she didn’t deserve to die
Because I need her for the rest of my life
God held my hand and wiped a tear from my eye
as one fell from His and He said
I Need Her Too
Beautiful Butterfly photograph is from James's collection. Please click here to James's awesome photographs. He is very talented and I know you will enjoy his work.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

An Interesting Email

I received this in an email yesterday and I thought it was very interesting so I wanted to share it with my friends.

In light of the many perversions and jokes we send to one another for a laugh, this is a little different: This is not intended to be a joke, it's not funny, it's intended to get you thinking. Billy Graham's daughter was interviewed on the Early Show and Jane Clayson asked her "How could God let something like this happen?" (regarding the attacks on Sept. 11). Anne Graham gave an extremely profound and insightful response. She said, "I believe God is deeply saddened by this, just as we are, but for years we've been telling God to get out of our schools, to get out of our government and to get out of our lives. And being the gentleman He is, I believe He has calmly backed out. How can we expect God to give us His blessing and His protection if we demand He leave us alone?" In light of recent events...terrorists attack, school shootings, etc. I think it started when Madeleine Murray O'Hare (she was murdered, her body found recently) complained she didn't want prayer in our schools, and we said OK. Then someone said you better not read the Bible in school . the Bible says thou shalt not kill, thou shalt not steal, and love your neighbor as yourself. And we said OK. Then Dr. Benjamin Spock said we shouldn't spank our children when they misbehave because their little personalities would be warped and we might damage their self-esteem (Dr. Spock's son committed suicide). We said an expert should know what he's talking about. And we said OK. Now we're asking ourselves why our children have no conscience, why they don't know right from wrong, and why it doesn't bother them to kill strangers, their classmates, and themselves. Probably, if we think about it long and hard enough, we can figure it out. I think it has a great deal to do with "WE REAP WHAT WE SOW." Funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell. Funny how we believe what the newspapers say, but question what the Bible saysFunny how you can send 'jokes' through e-mail and they spread like wildfire but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing. Funny how lewd, crude, vulgar and obscene articles pass freely through cyberspace, but public discussion of God is suppressed in the school and workplace. Funny how when you forward this message, you will not send it to many on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they WILL think of you for sending it. Funny how we can be more worried about what other people think of us than what God thinks of us. Pass it on if you think it has merit. If not then just discard it... no one will know you did. But, if you discard this thought process, don't sit back and complain about what bad shape the world is in!!

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Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Memories of Past Loved Ones

With the death of my Grandmother I have found myself reflecting on lost loved ones.

Many thoughts and memories of my grandfather have been flooding my mind. I know my grandmother and grandfather are together again. They were married 67 years when he passed away at the age of 92, that was 8 years ago. So I know he is very happy to be with my grandmother again. I also think of my grandmother that had begun with dementia and how wonderful it must be for her to have a clear mind again. The last visit to my grandmother's home she said to me with a warm smile, I do not know who you are but I know you are my family because you make me feel warm inside. That made me both happy and sad. The Friday before she died she was talking non stop which was funny because she was a woman of few words, she was a wonderful listener. Well, she kept telling me on Friday how pretty I was, I had to smile because I was hoping that even though she did not know who I was, she knew I was her family and that is why she kept saying I was pretty. I was hoping she was feeling that same warmth that she felt on our last visit. Now I smile as I think of them together again.

My most favorite cousin Mark who was killed in a car accident when he was 16. He was the greatest and I adored him so much. I was very young when he was killed but quite smitten with him and remember him well. On my dad's side of the family there are 48 cousins, 41 boys and 7 girls. Ughhh and I am second to the youngest, can you feel my pain??? Well Mark would take me everywhere with him (which was quite the change from being pushed aside and ignored by all the other cousins) and I thought he was the cat's meow. My dad is the youngest of 12, 10 boys and 2 girls. Both of his sisters had 4 boys each and both of their youngest sons were killed at the age of 16. Mark was killed in a car accident and the other drowned while fishing.

My MOST favorite Aunt (yes I know it seems to be a trend that my favorites pass) Sue passed away in 1976, she had a brain tumor. Oh how I loved this lady. She was married to my Uncle Jimmy (my Dad's brother) and they had two sons. I did not know she was sick when I was little. My uncle and aunt would travel extensively, little did I know back then that he knew she was dying and trying to fit everything into her short life. She was so beautiful, she had the kindest smile and the most beautiful eyes. What I remember about her most is that she loved to brush my hair, of course she had two boys so she thought it was fun to play with my hair. Well I had hair down to my waist and when I saw my mom with a brush I would begin to cry. My aunt would brush my hair for hours, it felt like she was brushing one strand at a time. We would talk, laugh and I remember I loved the sound of her voice as she brushed my hair. Well I was most horrified one time when I opened her bedroom door without knocking to find her standing there almost completely bald. I screamed and cried running from the room. That is when I was informed she had cancer and hair was falling out from the treatment. She had been wearing wigs. She was so young and so vibrant. Well she succumbed to the cancer right before the Bicentennial celebration. Her funeral was the weekend of 7-4-1976. My Uncle was very high up in the military and my Aunt was buried at Arlington National Cemetary which houses the tomb of the Unknown Soldier. Well if you can imagine what the military cemetary looked like the weekend of the bicentennial. Even though I was only 8 years old I remember it so vividly, it was breath taking a river of red, white and blue... They did the 21 gun salute, my heart jumped with each shot fired and they played taps. It is an experience that has stayed with me through the years. We also saw the tomb of the unknown soldier; I felt as if I could stand there watching the soldier march forever. I remember not wanting to leave. I wanted to stay with my Aunt Sue and I wanted to continue watching the tribute to all fallen soldiers.

I am not sure if you know the information about the Unknown Soldier, but it is amazing so I am posting it here for anyone who is interested.

Tomb of the Unknown Soldier
1. How many steps does the guard take during his walk across the tomb of the Unknowns and why? 21 steps. It alludes to the twenty-one gun salute, which is the highest honor given any military or foreign dignitary.
2. How long does he hesitate after his about face to begin his return walk and why? 21 seconds for the same reason as answer number 1
3. Why are his gloves wet? His gloves are moistened to prevent his losing his grip on the rifle.
4. Does he carry his rifle on the same shoulder all the time and if not, why not? He carries the rifle on the shoulder away from the tomb. After his march across the path, he executes an About Face and moves the rifle to the outside shoulder.
5. How often are the guards changed? Guards are changed every thirty minutes, twenty-four hours a day, 365 days a year.
6. What are the physical traits of the guard limited to? For a person to apply for guard duty at the tomb, he must be between 5' 10" and 6' 2" tall and his waist size cannot exceed 30." Other requirements of the Guard: They must commit 2 years of life to guard the tomb, live in a barracks under the tomb, and cannot drink any alcohol on or off duty for the rest of their lives. They cannot swear in public for the rest of their lives and cannot disgrace the uniform {fighting} or the tomb in any way. After two years, the guard is given a wreath pin that is worn on their lapel signifying they served as guard of the tomb. There are only 400 presently worn. The guard must obey these rules for the rest of their lives or give up the wreath pin. The shoes are specially made with very thick soles to keep the heat and cold from their feet. There are metal heel plates that extend to the top of the shoe in order to make the loud click as they come to a halt. There are no wrinkles, folds or lint on the uniform. Guards dress for duty in front of a full-length mirror. The first six months of duty a guard cannot talk to anyone, nor watch TV. All off duty time is spent studying the 175 notable people laid to rest in Arlington National Cemetery. A guard must memorize who they are and where they are interred. Among the notables are: President Taft, Joe E. Lewis (the boxer) and Medal of Honor winner Audie Murphy (the most decorated soldier of WWII) of Hollywood fame. Every guard spends five hours a day getting his uniforms ready for guard duty.

In 2003 as Hurricane Isabelle was approaching Washington, DC, our US Senate/House took 2 days off with anticipation of the storm. On the ABC evening news, it was reported that because of the dangers from the hurricane, the military members assigned the duty of guarding the Tomb of the Unknown Soldier were given permission to suspend the assignment. They respectfully declined the offer, "No way, Sir!" Soaked to the skin, marching in the pelting rain of a tropical storm, they said that guarding the Tomb was not just an assignment, it was the highest honor that can be afforded to a serviceperson. The tomb has been patrolled continuously, 24/7, since 1930. We can be very proud of our young men and women in the service no matter where they serve. God Bless and keep them.

The tomb says:

Monday, November 07, 2005

Second ONLY to My Mother

My Grandmother
January 3, 1909 - November 6, 2005
May she rest in peace!!
God Speed Nana

My grandmother passed away yesterday after having hip surgery on Thursday. I have been in Pennsylvania with family at her bedside since early Friday morning. She did wonderful during the operation better than they imagined for a 96 year old. But unfortunately suffered a massive heart attack soon after she left recovery. Friday was a gift from God because she was talking to us, smiling and saying she was happy. She spoke of her mother, father, her siblings and also she saw my grandfather sitting in a rocking chair outside her door. (she had dementia and had not remembered my grandfather or even being married for about 5 years) She spoke of God a lot on Friday, everytime she spoke of God she had this heavenly smile on her face. Saturday was a very terrible and traumatic day as she was suffering beyond anyone's imagination. Her whimpers and moans were heartbreaking. She repeatedly told us she was not going, she did not want to go but she also spoke of the severe pain. It was this day that we decided it was time for her to go on to the next world. We asked them to stop the blood pressure medication that was bringing her blood pressure up. Our goal was to make her comfortable until God took her home. Sunday she rested quietly and peacefully, she slept so soundly it was wonderful. She just drifted into the next world with no pain. I thank God for that.

My grandmother was the most awesome person. As in the title of this blog entry; I said second only to my mother because I think there is no one like my mother. I aspire to be half the person my mom is and I truly do not believe I will ever reach that goal. My grandmother was a typical little Italian Grandmother; cooking, cleaning and baking. I have so many wonderful memories of my nana spoiling me. She was so tiny and so strong. I remember sitting in her little kitchen talking to her for hours as she baked and cooked. I remember her playing her organ in the front bedroom upstairs as she sang. I have so many wonderful memories that I will be holding so close to my heart right next to the place I keep the memories of my grandfather.

Friday, November 04, 2005

Blogger names Shamelessly Stolen from Lori

I snatched this from Lori like a thief in the night.

Why did you chose the name of your blog?

I think mine is quite obvious but... sometimes what is obvious to us is not so obvious to others. So please share why you chose the name you did.

I go by the submissive name cherish because I believe all submissives should be cherished. I picked cherishmeplease because I was just coming out of a very painful break up and being betrayed by my best friend, and it was how I felt; help me I feel broken, beaten, abandoned and I wanted to be cherished. So I think the name was much more a state of mind when I began my blog. I started writing in my blog to get rid of all the nonsense that was floating around my head. So I picked cherishmeplease. I do believe every single person should be cherished for the lovely person they are inside. Smiles

I thought this was such a great question. So I snuck into Lori's blog while she was sleeping peacefully and snatched it. shhhhh!!! Please do not tell her, she might beat me like I stole something... hmmmmm maybe you should tell her. HEHEHE okay sorry I am a bit punchy this morning... giggles!!! T.G.I.F. especially because I am off work today!!!!!!!!

Thursday, November 03, 2005

What Kind of Eyes Do You Have?

Take the quiz: "What kind of eyes do you have? (with pictures)"

You have eden eyes. Eden is the color of water. Your eyes symbolize your great flexibility. You are a creative person. You can think of many good ways to get your point across to people as you have very good communication abilities. When someone feels down or is hurt, you have the remarkable ability to help them and heal them. If you have too little going on in your life, you may be withdrawn and depressed, timid, manipulative, unreliable, stubborn, or suspicious. Some words to describe you: peaceful, sincere, affectionate, tranquil, intuitive, trustworthy, pure, loyal, healing, and stable.

Stolen from Jim C.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Go Undr Go

Above Picture from Undr's Blog Profile

WOW everyone should pop over to
Undr's blog it is worth $11,290.80. I feel quite inadequate since my blog was worth $2,822.70. Way to gooooo Undr You ROCK and RULE!!!!!

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

101 Things About Me

  1. I am married (18 years)with 2 great kids (12 and 14)
  2. I believe I had an identical twin that either died during birth or was sold on the black market. (I blogged this experience, click here if you want to read the blog entry)
  3. I have the greatest mom in the entire world
  4. I have one brother who is 3.5 years older than me and I think he is fabulous! I almost lost my brother in a near fatal car accident when he was 16, I do not think I could have continued life without him. This accident completely changed my brother, he had a severe life threatening head injury. I lost my brother that day but I received the best brother in the entire world when he finally came back to us. He was different but he was much happier and much more settled.
  5. My entire family have the same eyes. It must be a dominant gene in our family; grandfather, my mom and Uncle, my cousins (Uncle's children), my brother and his children, myself and my children. You can tell everyone who is not directly linked to our family (e.g. my dad, sister in law, my husband) because their eyes are different.
  6. I was the only girl born to our family in 29 years on my mother's side of the family, my daughter is the only girl born in 24 years and still standing. She complains about all the boys and I tell her I know her pain. I explain to her in 53 years her and I were the only girls ever born into our family.
  7. On my dad's side I have 47 cousins, 41 boy cousins and 6 girl cousins, I am second to the youngest. Can you all feel my pain? hehe
  8. I am a child of divorce I never saw anyone from my dad's side of the family after the divorce when I was in 7th grade.
  9. I have never drank alcohol and do not intend to ever try it.
  10. I am an Adult Child of an Alcoholic Father (who is sober 17 years)
  11. I work as a Parish Administrator in an Episcopal Church. (I am Catholic)
  12. I am Italian and a Leo
  13. I adore the Christmas Holiday.
  14. I have a new car (well almost a year old now) and still drive the same car I have been driving for 6 years (it took me about a year to drive this car when it was new). I try to drive the new car once a week. It is awesome and I love it just waiting to get over the sticker shock and feel comfortable driving it.
  15. I can not watch shows or movies where animals kill each other, but I love Cold Case files and American Justice.
  16. I do not watch anything that makes me cry, I hate crying!
  17. I love the rain
  18. My favorite color is purple
  19. I wake up every morning at 4ish to make my husband coffee and lunch, I bring his coffee to him, I have all his stuff at the front door for him and I start his truck when the weather is cold. shhhhh I actually enjoy it but do not tell!!
  20. I love Green Day, Audio Slave, Foo Fighters and Alan Jackson
  21. I will listen to my favorite song over and over again nonstop, driving my family nuts.
  22. I will watch my favorite movie over and over again, this also seems to bother the family.
  23. I am intrigued by gay porn
  24. I am a submissive but a very dominant woman
  25. I have obsessive compulsive personality, that is much more apparent when I am stressed or upset.
  26. I love to write in my blog but my feelings are hurt when people do not comment. I know it is silly and I am trying very hard to get past it.
  27. I chat in a D/s chat room, and I enjoy it moderately.
  28. I have a LOW tolerance for nonsense, lies and head games.
  29. I speak my mind freely whether the person wishes to hear it or not.
  30. I am so proud of my children. They are so beautiful inside and out. I love when people compliment me on them.
  31. I am definitely a Mamma Bear mess with my kids and you are opening a can of worms that I do not think you wish to deal with. For some reason when it comes to the kids I can not be rational.
  32. I have the patience of a fruit fly.
  33. Mentally challenged people love me. No matter where I am be it at a restaurant or in the store if there is a person that is mentally challenged they will approach me and talk to me. I have been like this since I started school, the special kids were always attracted to me.
  34. I love this because they are some of the most interesting, geniune, loving and kind people on this earth.
  35. This is the same for babies, children and animals. My children think I am goofy but their friends all love me.
  36. I love to laugh.
  37. I love when someone laughs because of something I said or did.
  38. I enjoy traveling but only if my children are with me.
  39. But I hate to travel by car.
  40. I love the computer.
  41. I enjoy the relationships I have online, and I sometimes think I prefer them to my real time friends.
  42. I have a black thumb with inside plants.
  43. I have a green thumb with outside plants.
  44. I hate to cook, someone in the family will complain about what I am fixing for dinner.
  45. But I love to bake, family appreciates goodies
  46. I love to have people at my house visiting.
  47. I am great one on one.
  48. I am horrible in a crowd.
  49. I am not moody at all.
  50. I hate to be alone in the car, I am always on my cell phone chatting to friends.
  51. I love to be alone in my house and enjoy the quiet.
  52. When I do not feel good I lay my forehead on my husband's shoulder. I am not sure why I do that
  53. My husband always says what does not feel good when I put my forehead on him.
  54. I love music videos and it can make or a break a song for me.
  55. I do not like to read because my 2nd grade teacher would tape my mouth shut during silent reading because my lips moved. I believe that changed the roadmap of the person I was suppose to be.
  56. I am currently trying to put that nightmare behind me by finding stuff to read that really catches my attention. I have a great belief that when traumatic things happen it changes who we were ultimately meant to be.
  57. I rarely take off from work. I have to be half dead to stay home.
  58. I do not like anyone to know it is my birthday because it embarrasses me when they say happy birthday or buy me presents
  59. I am very polite. I always say thank you, please and have a great day to strangers, I am even more polite to my friends and loved ones. I believe charity and politeness should start at the home.
  60. I never realized how wonderful family rituals were until they were gone. With the death of my grandfather I have seen many of our family rituals die with him.
  61. We have continued one family ritual, which is eating 7 courses of fish on Christmas eve.
  62. Spaghetti with homemade sauce and meatballs on a Sunday afternoon (2:00pm) feels like home to me.
  63. I love chocolate
  64. I love the smell of Noxema because it reminds me of my grandparents; their bathroom always smelled like noxema. My grandfather use to shave with Noxema and my grandmother washed her face with it.
  65. I hate dark chocolate but I love Peanut Chews because they remind me of my grandparents. They always had peanut chews in the refrigerator.
  66. I will sometimes buy peanut chews, park in a secluded area, eat them slowly with my eyes closed as I remember all the wonderful things about my grandparents that I loved and never want to forget.
  67. I know sign language and use to correct my children with sign language when they were younger. Then they realized all they had to do was look away so I had to begin talking to them to correct them in public.
  68. I do NOT lick envelopes.
  69. I hate public restrooms.
  70. I always carry antibacterial wipes and antibacterial lotion.
  71. I do not like to be touched by strangers e.g. bumped into at the mall, someone standing too close to me in line.
  72. I hate the mall.
  73. I love to eat dinner out.
  74. I have a laundry ritual, which everyone finds funny. I can not wash the clothes out of order.
  75. I never eat Italian food out.
  76. Seafood is my favorite choice for dining out.
  77. Mexican is second.
  78. I love Dr. Phil.
  79. I have one dog who is an absolute doll and the best dog in the entire world (in my humble opinion)
  80. I could ride a two wheeler, rollerskate and swim underwater at 2 years old
  81. I could read and write by the time I was 3
  82. I fractured my skull when I was 1 year old from throwing a tempertantrum. I wanted to go outside and my mom said no so I threw myself backwards hitting my head on the concrete floor.
  83. At 2 years old I split the back of my head open from top to bottom. Again I was throwing a tempertantrum, my mom was trying to show me how to brush my teeth and I did not like it so I threw myself back hitting the corner of the wall. I still have a scar on the back of my head.
  84. When I was 2.5 years old I went to throw myself backwards in yet another tempertantrum and my father picked me up, beat the crap out of me and I never threw another tempertantrum again.
  85. I love the show I Love Lucy, I probably know every episode word for word. I also like Bewitched and I Dream of Jeanie.
  86. I love watching storms across the water sitting in my car.
  87. I love tattoos, my husband hates them.
  88. I love to gaze upon the stars at night and in the early morning
  89. I love the water.
  90. I live on an Island and I do not think I could live away from the water.
  91. If I were to win the lottery my ultimate dream would be to buy a huge piece of property on the Island, right on the water and build three wonderful homes. One for my family, one for my mother and one for my brother's family. That would be heaven on earth.
  92. I hate to watch the news on television, but I read the news on the computer.
  93. I love to hear my children talk to each other, when they are having a conversation I feel I did something right.
  94. I love to turn the music up real loud in the car, then the kids and I sing so loud. A perk of liking the same music as your children
  95. I prefer sunsets to sunrises.
  96. I love quotes.
  97. I miss Barney... that was a very sad day when the kids went to school and someone told them Barney sucked. They refused to watch Barney when the other kids said he sucked.
  98. I played the flute in the marching band and the concert band. I had a boyfriend in highschool who had a rock band and I played Stairway to Heaven with his band.
  99. I did gymnastics from age 2 until age 11 and I was very good (at least my mom said I was, hehe actually I was on a gymnastic's team). My gymnastics career ended when I was in 6th grade because of severe tendonitis. I had to stop gymnastics completely, and I believe that is something else that changed the roadmap of who I was suppose to be.
  100. I believe in fate but I do not believe in leaving all in the hands of fate because she is very busy.
  101. I prefer to live my life as if there is a God and die to find there is not, then to live my life as if there is no God and die to find there is. (this is not verbatim but I received it in an email long ago) WOWWWWWWWW looks at bloody fingertips and goes to take a nap!!! If you decide to take on this task I would love to see my friend's answers.