Friday, September 30, 2005

Two Hearts One Soul


When you can no longer see where one soul ends and the other begins, than you are truly complete!!!

Thursday, September 29, 2005

Help my daughter is a teenager!

But honey that one looks beautiful on you!!!! Oh mother it looks awful... or better yet I hear from inside the dressing room I hate this one forget it!! She rolled her eyes so much I thought they would fall out of her head.

Disclaimer: This is not my daughter or me!!!

Homecoming Dress Shopping UGHHH

The night from hell!! I brought my daughter out to find a homecoming dress aka prom gown. They say homecoming dress but what they really mean is gown. Well my daughter and I could not be anymore different if we were not of the same human race. I swear she is part alien or something. Someone came down and took my sweetbaby and left this teenage alien. Well she has as much attitude as she has looks. I know she is my daughter and I am prejudice. But she is beautiful and I have people telling me all the time how gorgeous she is. She is very exotic looking and I always have people asking me what is her nationality. (We are half Italian half german but look completely Italian ) She has thick wavy dark brown hair, dark brown almond shape eyes and sun kissed skin. She is a beauty that has no clue she is beautiful. She thinks she is ugly and can make you a vast list of things she would like to change. I do not understand how she does not see her beauty. Especially when she is told all the time how beautiful she is by other people. She just says they are being nice. I am happy she is not conceded but I would love for her to have a healthy self esteem. Now saying that my son is gorgeous as well but he is not as dark as her. He has sandy brown hair, lighter skin and dark brown eyes. The girls at school go crazy over him. I am not sure that is his looks or his personality. He is the class clown. But I do not have people stopping me for him like they do for her. But I think he is just as beautiful. Its funny when people say oh she is beautiful or he is handsome I always say thank you then I chuckle and think why I am thanking them I had nothing to do with how beautiful they are.(I gave birth to them but God made them beautiful inside and out) WOW did I get off the subject or what? Okay pops a Ritalin and gets back on track. Okay shopping for this dress was like a slow torture and I found myself begging for mercy. Three generations, three completely different tastes in clothes and three very strong personalities shopping for one dress. My mother, myself and my daughter fought with each other up and down the mall. She would put one dress on I would love it, my mother liked it and daughter hated it. Of course those positions changed with each dress. She did have one dress she tried on at Hot Topic, she comes out and it looked cute but was made for someone with a much bigger chest. She proceeded to pull at the cups in the top saying if I had bigger ones this would not be so bad, I almost fell over. Well then she continued prancing around pulling on the top and was drawing a crowd of boys... I said umm back in the dressing room and take it off. But it was hysterical!! Well we did find a beautiful dress at J.C.Pennys, $150 bucks for a ninth grader to go to the homecoming, last year she hit me up for a dress $150 bucks for an eight grade end of the year dance. She told me and I quote "Mom I will wear again and again please I love it and want it." Well.... I fell for it. When I mentioned her wearing it again she looked at me with much attitude and said that butt ugly dress. Oh man was I pissed and she said well I liked it last year but this is a new year and I am older. What the heck? oh well... needless to say the Queen of Mean got what she wanted as always. There is a long story why she is so spoiled and I will write that another time. I know I complain about her but really she is a good kid. I can deal with a little attitude. Considering there is a 9th grader pregnant in her school. I see how the girls dress like whores. My girl is so shy she would never wear those clothes. She feels strange in her cheerleading uniform and complains that the practice uniform is way too short. She is just now starting to notice boys. Heck my son has had a girl friend from 3 year old preschool to the present he has always loved the girls. So although I complain I am blessed with two wonderful kids.

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Starry Night


I Love Where I Live

I look outside every morning around 4am. I love to see the stars and moon in the sky. I have been living here for almost thirteen years and still can not get over the awe of the sky here. There are no street lights where I live, the sky is so dark and you can see every single star. I do not think you realize how beautiful the sky is when you live in an area with street lights. I never knew what I was missing until I moved here. I love when visitors leave my house on a clear night, they get outside and gasp with awe. They are amazed at the sky. It is so dark at night and the early morning, you can not see your hand in front of your face. When I first moved here it scared me to death to be outside at night or early morning. But after the first year I grew to love the darkness so much. Well this morning the sky was as beautiful as ever a repeat of yesterday morning, not one cloud in the sky, the cresent moon sleeping on its back and the stars twinkling as bright as ever just for me. I love to go to the beach at night and watch the stars dancing on the water. The moon lighting a pathway to my soul. I sit in the darkness and just watch the water rippling, listening to the sound of the water and nature. It is wonderful and I appreciate those moments.

I also love the rain, the sound, the smell, the cleansing of the earth. I am not a big fan of storms because I do not like the loud thunder. We have rolling thunder, which I hate with a passion!!! I had never experienced rolling thunder until we moved here. As much as I hate thunder storms, is as much as I love to watch them from the beach. When the storm hits, I pack the kids up in the car and we drive down to our beach (about 2 blocks) The three of us just sit there in amazement as the water churns, the lightning strikes and thunder shakes our car. It is scary but exciting. Sometimes we will drive and park nearby the bridge and watch the storms from there.

There have been many changes to this area, the Island has grown in population unbelievably in the past few years and I long for the days when they rolled the sidewalks up at 8pm. But I still love where I live!

Monday, September 26, 2005

Shower or Bath?

Shower all the way for me!! I do not like baths at all and I do not take them.

Shower Routine

I was reading Richard's weblog as I do everyday because I enjoy it. Well today's log was about shower routines. So I wrote mine out, I thought it was a different subject. I would love to see yours if you have time to fill out the comment!!!!!

My Shower Routine
-Enter the bathroom
-gather my robe and towel and place it on the toilet lid
-put on facial cleanser
-start the hot water, let it run then add the cold water until the temperature is perfect
-get in the shower and rinse off my facial cleanser
-lather my hair with Nutriesse Long and Strong Shampoo, rinse and then slather Long and Strong Conditioner on my hair until it is dripping (Hates splitends)
-I leave the conditioner on my hair as I soap up my entire body with Warm Vanilla Sugar liquid soap from Bath & Body Works.
-Shave everything that gets shaved (blushes)
-rinse my body completely
-then rinse my hair
-turn off the water
-put my hair up in a big fluffy towel
-put my bathrobe on
Step out...

Hopefully I can get all that in before I hear MOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMM????????

Thanks Richard!


Farewell to Agent 86 aka Don Adams, he died at age 82.

Friday, September 23, 2005

Football Rocks!

STILL UNDEFEATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wooo hooooo we just beat the toughest team in the league. They play dirty and low blows all around. My son was punched, kicked and one of our players was hurt really bad when one of the dirty players slammed his helmet into his stomach. They are the meanest team and everyone HATES playing them. We beat them 45 to 20 and their Coach was PISSED!!!!!!!! At the end of the game when all the players shaked hands their Coach refused to shake our kids hands or also refused to shake our coaches hand. The kids from the other team told our kids fuck you (my son's team and the other team is 12 years old and younger)as the shook hands. I am furious and I need to do something but I have not clue what. We have never beat this team before but our team always lost with diginity. We have to face them one more time this year. I am not sure how we get stuck playing them twice but of course we do. And we have to play them on their field which is in the worst part of Annapolis. They will not even let our cheerleaders go to the games because the boys from over there say sexually explicit things to them. Well they can act like poor sports as always and even worse sports when the lose, but, our guys are due they have been losing to them year after year. The Coaches were trying to play the second string a bit more this game. He kept saying fresh meat, fresh meat... But they scored the 20 points on our second string players. But that is okay everyone has a right to play. So then the coach only played the first string for the 3rd and 4th quarter. I am so very proud of my son and his team. They are good losers and good winners!!!!

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Drive Home

This is my drive home! Why would I want to live anywhere else?

American Cities that Best Fit Me

Courtesy of Kate

American Cities That Best Fit You:

70% Austin

70% Honolulu

70% Miami

70% Portland

65% Atlanta

I can not imagine living in any of these areas. I prefer the Mid Atlantic!!!!

Mutual Love

One Sided Love

I no longer believe in magical love. I think it is nonsense and I know that is awful to be like that but I think the magical love is the one sided love. The love that one person has for another that is so deep and so passionate that it draws the other person in and he thinks he feels the love as deeply as her. But... then after a few months reality hits, and their relationship crashes and burns. There is no such thing as I love you enough for both of us. True love lasts, and the passion that grows from true love is magical. Lust and passion passes because in our hearts we want true love. One sided love is nothing more than one person's obsession for another. I think love has to be mutual for it to be love. Am I crazy here? Or am I GULPS maturing??? growing up? Falls to the floor, kicks feet and pounds the ground with my hand nope nope nope I refuse to grow up!!!!

Wishes everyone a love that is mutual, passionate and true.

The Keys to Your Heart

Courtesy of Underachiever

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

Contemplating Questions that Have No Answers

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

A Beautiful View

Stolen from LocuTus of Borg

Stolen from LocuTus of Borg (an awesome blog!)

A "Pick-Me-Up"
Think about these one at a time BEFORE going on to the next one.*Think about the feelings ...Think about where you were ...Think about who you were with ...Think about the smells ...Think about what you hear in your mind when you read these ...IT DOES MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD, especially the thought at the end.
1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket.
5. A special longing glance.
6. Getting mail and not a bill.
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Chocolate milkshake (or vanilla or strawberry!)
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling.
14. A good conversation.
15. The beach.
16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter.
17. Laughing at yourself.
18. Holding a newborn baby.
19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
20. Running through sprinklers.
21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
23. Laughing at an inside joke.
24. Friends.
25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
29. Playing with a new puppy.
30. Having someone play with your hair.31. Sweet dreams.
32. Hot chocolate.
33. Road trips with friends.
34. Swinging on swings.
35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.36. Making chocolate chip cookies.
37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
38. Holding hands with someone you care about.
39. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
40. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
41. Watching the sunrise.
42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
43. Knowing that somebody misses you.
44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
45. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.

This brought a smile to my face today and started my day off wonderfully. I hope it makes whoever reads this all warm and fuzzy too.

Thank you Richard

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Yum Yum

Crabcake Recipe

Well.... My husband finished picking the rest of the crabs yesterday evening. Oh how tempting to sit, pick and eat but patience always pays off. CRABCAKES mmmmmmnnnnnnnnnnnnn well it was worth passing up the last bit of crabs. We had crabcakes for dinner tonight and they were FABULOUS!!!!!! We tried a new recipe from a restaurant closeby and I have to say it is the best recipe ever. We have used the same recipe for 19 years for crabcakes but this one unbelievably beat it out and it was easier. I thought I would post it here incase someone wanted a crabcake recipe or just looking for something different.

1 pound Maryland jumbo lump crab meat (gently picked to remove any shell)
1 egg beaten
1/4 cup mayonnaise
1/2 tablespoon Old Bay seasoning
1 tablespoon chopped parsley
1 teaspoon dijon mustard1 dash hot sauceJuice from
1/4 of a fresh lemon

Blend all ingredients together and add to crabmeat.
Add 1/4 cup plain extra-fine bread crumbs to mixture, and refrigerate for 15 minutes to set up.
Form into cakes and bake at 350 degrees for 10 to 12 minutes or until lightly browned.

A few other tidbits:
Blue crabs make the best crab meat for crab cakes
Generally, 6 crabs yield 1 pound of crab meat
When tossing ingredients for crab cakes, toss gently. Otherwise, jumbo lump crab meat becomes gross and squishy. Lumps are better!

I Woke Up This Morning Feeling Like Dorothy

And You Were There, and You and You

This is my second time typing this darn thing, I almost bagged it but it was so funny I had to write about it.

Okay now I know I am nuts... I woke up this morning feeling like Dorothy after visiting Oz when she wakes up and says to her friends; and you were there, and you were there and you were there.... Well I had a dream last night and it had all the people who's blogs I read in it. I had a party and everyone was there. RHSP and I were in the bathroom looking at these little knick knacks that were broken all over the floor. Which is funny in itself because I do not like clutter and do not have any knick knacks out anywhere in my house. RHSP kept saying what happened? why do you think this happened? I do not understand why it happened. I said to him I have no idea but we need to get it cleaned up before someone steps on it. With that Richard comes in, steps on the broken glass and cuts his foot on it. RHSP and I help Richard to the kitchen, where Kate was fixing three plates of food for her kids. In the background I can hear the kids laughing and splashing in the pool. Kate puts the plates down, comes over to Richard, looks at his foot and faints. Cliff and Phil come in from outside, and help Kate to a chair where she comes to and is fine. We decide that Cliff and I will take Richard to the hospital. We go out the back door, where the biggest party is going on. There is a big sign that says welcome home Malcom. We help Richard to Cliff's red jeep and take off for the hospital. The wind is blowing in our faces (the top and doors are off the jeep) and the sun is shining bright. We get up to the bridge and it is backed up. (I figure this comes from yesterday a tractor trailer turned over on the bridge and traffic was snarled) Cliff said we will walk over the bridge it will be fine. So we helped Richard hoble across the bridge (the bridge is 6.5 miles long, laughs) When we get off the bridge instead of Cliff and Richard it was my best friend Dave, my friend's daughter and me; and Dave and I were both holding my friend's daughter's hand and we were doing one, two, three SWING. Then I woke up!

Okay so no more reading blogs and eating ice cream right before bed!! hehe

Richard, Phil, Kate and Malcom looked like they do in their blog pics. I have not seen Cliff or RHSP, in the dream; Cliff was tall, slender, with dark hair and light eyes, RHSP was shorter with black hair and dark eyes.

Dorothy welcome to OZ

THANKS KATE!!!!! I now know how to do the link thingy... yes I know my computer terminology is beyond believable!

Monday, September 19, 2005

Have You Ever Loved Someone So Much It Hurts?

Have you ever loved someone so much hurts?
When you are apart your heart aches so deeply?
You can remember every single dimple on their face, twinkle in their eye, laugh line, how they smell and where every strand of hair laid when you saw the person last.

Have you ever loved someone so much that their laughter is the melody, their voice is the chorus, and their breathing is the rhythm of the song that your heart sings?

All Yours


Well I woke up in an ugly mood this morning, feeling as if I could bite steel. I am not a moody person something has to piss me off for me to be in a bad mood or angry. Well I know where this mood is coming from, last night+husband, GROWLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS..

Okay this is how it went down. I just got home from picking up my daughter from cheer camp, changed out of my clothes and sat down. The pain in the ass aka my husband starts whining that there is no ice cream that he likes because the only ice cream we have is non fat and he wanted ice cream. hmmmmm lets see when I left to pick up my daughter would have been a great time for him to tell me he did not like the ice cream we had and he wanted something different. So this is my cue to get up and go get him ice cream. I said well what kind do you want? He tells me and I get up, get dressed, and off to the store. As I am walking out the door he says oh no wait do not go ~rolls eyes~ puhhhleeezeee so I just kept going. This is my husband's MO he never asks for anything he hints. If he wants more coffee, he will say hmmmmm honey is the coffee still on, I was going to get another cup??? Then I get up and make him a cup of coffee. Or he will say oh is that what you are watching so I give him the remote and say oh no I am not watching it. Well.... I go get the ice cream and return to the house and he is PISSED!! He said I did not want you to go out for ice cream. He is glaring at me, I was like WTF its what you wanted.... another fire I tried to put out before it started that blew up in my face. So I slice the banana, scoop the ice cream, pour Hersheys syrup over it and I set it on the table with a small bowl of M&Ms, and I get no thank you, no kiss my ass, no nothing because taaaadddaaaaaaa he is not speaking to me. I went to bed at 8:30 last night figured I was not going to deal with his nonsense, I have much better things to do with my time. He can have his tempertantrum without me. Well the alarm went off at 4 and the two benefits to him being pissed; first thing is I got the bed all to myself because he slept on the couch and secondly, he gets up on the first time I call him. So I wake him up and he pops off the couch and gets ready. So I go about my morning routine, I bring him a cup of coffee and again nada. Well it is time for him to leave; I give him his coffee, his lunch and keys for the car, and out the door he goes as I stand thinking WTF???????????? He is pissed because I went to get him ice cream but now I am pissed and he will pay for it later as this day unfolds, because I am only going to get angrier as the day progresses and I have much time to think about it and steam before this evening. Wooo hooo looks like I will get the bed to myself this evening too!!!

Okay enough venting..... grinzzzz wishes everyone a fantastic Monday!!!!

Sunday, September 18, 2005

Two Bodies/One Soul

Sunsets Passion Ignites

The sun begins to set on a warm summer day. Daylight disappears to the orange glow of dusk. We sit very close to each other on a soft blanket with our toes buried in the warm sand, quietly listening to the songs of nature. The waves crashing against the beach rhythmically. I feel his arm wrap around my waist as we watch the sunset slowly. mmmnn I melt into his arms feeling so safe, secure, and complete. His hand moves up my back and begins carressing my long wavy brown hair thats cascades down my back. As the sun disappears and darkness falls, his hand grasps the back of my hair turning my head to face him, our lips are magnets that are drawn together with great passion. A gentle kiss is born as he still holds firm to my hair with his left hand and traces my face with his right. My heart is racing with pure animal passion, my heart pounding with immense love, my soul singing and my spirit soaring. The kiss begins slowly, but quickly grows more passionate, hard and fast. Our tongues dancing to music of lust, love and passion.

Green Day

Am I the only Old Fogey who absolutely loves this band?

Saturday, September 17, 2005

Nature's Beauty

Still Undefeated!!!!

Wooooo hoooooooo

We killed them 38 to 6... Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

My boy rocked!!!! He is starting defense and starting offense, he was exhausted!!! But during the third quarter the skies opened up and it poured cats and dogs. Which was great, even though we were soaked to the bone, it cooled off a very muggy and humid evening. The fourth quarter the coaches played all the second string and my son did not understand why he did not play but we explained to him that at 38 to 6 it is a great opportunity for the kids who do not play as much to get in there and play.

The sky was beautiful after the rain, blacker than black, the full moon with an ember glow and lightning that was lighting the clouds around the moon. It was extraordinary...

Still licking my lips...... I went up to my friend at the football game, arriving behind her and putting my hands over her eyes as a guess who? she said I do not know who you are but I know you had crabs today. LAUGHSSSS she could smell the Old Bay seasoning on me, and I washed my hands several times. The crabs were fat, I mean heavy fat and DELICIOUS!!!!!!!!!! mmmnnn mmmmnnn goood.... 1/2 bushel of large crabs (number 1's) for 75 bucks. Even though they were a bit smaller than expected they were so fat that it made it worth it.

Tagged by Kate

Tagged By Kate

Songs I am fully digging now:

1. Holiday – Green Day
2. When September Ends – Green Day
3. Big Time – Big & Rich
4. Dream Girl – Dave Matthews Band
5. Somewhere Only We Know – Keane
6. Everybodys Changing – Keane
7. Look What You’ve Done - Jet

7 Answers to 7 Questions

7 things I plan to do before I die:

1. Get out of debt
2. Lose Weight
3. Put both kids through college
4. Watch my children grow into the human beings they are meant to be
5. Own a Classic Mustang
6. See Green Day in Concert and meet Billie Jo Armstrong
7. Be at least half the person, mother and grandmother that my mother is

7 things I can do:

1. Roll my tongue
2. Make people laugh
3. Organize anything at work
4. Swim like a fish since I was 2 years old
5. Cross my Eyes
6. Do my hair without a mirror
7. Make beautiful babies

7 things I cannot do:

1. Organize anything at home
2. Whistle
3. Lick an envelope
4. Eat or Drink after anyone
5. Sing
6. Watch Hunting Shows or animal shows that are about killing (e.g. Lion killing an antelope)
7. Watch any movies or television shows that make me cry

7 things that attract me to another person:

1. Intelligence and Common Sense
2. Compassion and Patience
3. Sense of humor
4. Great Smile and Kind Eyes
5. Success
6. Passion and Fire
7. Dominance

7 things I say most often:

1. Damn it
2. I have said that 15 times
3. Total meltdown
4. Be nice to each other
5. Cool
6. Killer
7. You know what I mean?

7 Celebrity crushes:

1. Billie Joe Armstrong
2. Alan Jackson
3. John Travolta
4. Dougray Scott
5. Johnny Depp
6. Mark Ruffalo
7. Carey Hart

7 Bloggers I Tagged:

1. Cliff Stern
3. Grend31
4. Richard Vincins
5. Phil
6. War Eagle
7. I do not have a seventh


The Party is Over

Okay I have put my pity party behind me and realize how ridiculous I am for having such feelings. HELP ME I want to get off this rollercoaster ride that is my emotional state.

My daughter has Cheerleading Choreography Camp this weekend. She hates her practice uniform and was in a complete meltdown over it this morning. She is a lot like my husband in the sense that she gets all worked up over stuff that she has no control over. I told her wear the uniform or quit the team that you worked so hard to get on. She just looked at me like I was pure evil.

My son has a game tonight and playing one of the best teams in our league. I am hoping this team comes in just thinking they will beat us easy, because they always do. If they do we will win today and remain undefeated. Fingers crossed!!! Our guys deserve a huge win!! Our cheerleaders beat their cheerleaders at a competition in Washington DC two years ago and their parents actually booed our cheerleaders. They do not handle losing well and I was shocked. But it was a great lesson for our girls about being sore losers and their coach took the opportunity to teach them a life lesson about it.

We have put an order for a half of bushel of steamed blue crabs and I am soooo excited. Yummy yummy mmmmnnn... Okay now I am drooling! There is just something about blue crabs steamed with Old Bay YUMMMMM!!!! We all laugh because even though we live on an Island, the kids are born and raised here, the seafood is so wonderful here my daughter does not like seafood. We call her a land lubber chuckles... my son loves seafood like we do. We go to seafood resturants on the Island and she orders chicken and the wait staff always says ahhh a landlubber eh? she rolls her eyes but we think it is funny.

Are You Kinky? I am a Kinky Player Score 310

Your Hotlanta Kink Test score was 310!
Here is the chart so that you can see how you are rated:
100 or less
You need to lighten up and live a little!
101 to 200
You have an average sex life in need of kink.
201 to 300
You have sweet hints of a kinky nature.
301 to 400
You are definitely a kinky player.
401 to 500
You are a major league kinkster!
501 to 600
Wow! You're too kinky for most!!!
601 or more
The maximum score for this test is 700.

Thursday, September 15, 2005


Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Are You Pure? I am 78% pure!

Your Ultimate Purity Score Is...
CategoryYour ScoreAverage
Never taken out of the packaging
Has yet to see self in mirror
Sex Drive81.6%
The Pope is envious
Done the nasty, but not creatively
Fucking Sick87.6%
Refreshingly normal
You are 78.01% pure
Average Score: 72.6%

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Wife Swap

Hmmmmm the title got your interest, eh? Well.. sorry to disappoint but this entry is about the television show Wife Swap. There was a Wife Swap Marathon on family. I have never seen this show before and WOW I was blown away. I do not watch very much television and what I do watch is on Discovery or A&E. Well I am happy I was able to see this show, I loved it!!!!! What a concept... For those who have never seen the show they take two complete opposite moms and switch them. The family's learn a lot and so do the mothers. Total appreciation of what you have! Well my son was watching the shows on and off with me, and at one point he kissed my cheek and said mom I am very happy you are my mom. I said what was that for he said well I am watching some of the other mothers and I am happy you are not too strict, not too easy and our house is clean some of those people live like pigs. chuckles I had to laugh but honestly it made me feel very good. I am use to the constant assault from my 13 year old daughter, that I am over protective, mean and get on her nerves. Thirteen is an ugly age, I just hope my boy does not turn ugly when he turns 13 soon. I think girls and boys are so different.

Sunday, September 11, 2005


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Saturday, September 10, 2005

A Mother's Pride

Well tonight was my son's second game of the season. His team is undefeated at the moment and we are thrilled. My son's football team is usually the underdogs. We come from an Island and our football team accepts every child who tries out for the team. The teams we play are from a big county they have 200 kids come out and then they start weeding the kids out. The best kids stay and the rest are history. So you can imagine our teams get beat unmercifully. But our guys know how to lose with pride. The funniest thing happened last year, our team was losing 42 to nothing. Well I am not sure how many games it had been since we scored any points too many to mention I am sure. Well the score is 42 to nothing on a brisk autumn evening and we are playing under the lights. Well our teams has the ball, they hand it off, the kid doubles back goes across runs and runs,. we are all on our feet screaming like maniacs. Every single parent adorning the teams colors. The boy runs and SCORESSSSSS. We go nuts, we are screaming, yelling, airhorns, you would have thought the boy just run the winning touchdown in the superbowl. We have been told many times over that our parents are the most supportive parents and we impress other teams with our team loyalty. Well needless to say our boys worked so hard and had a very horrible year last year. It was heartbreaking after every game how do you explain to a 11 year old why they always lose. Well, let me just say 7 to nothing for the first game, and 20 to nothing at today's game. My boy played defense second string last year. It was his first year playing and as the season started winding down they realized that he is a good player. So the last two games he was first string defense. Well this year he is on the first string offense and defense, he plays the entire game and we are so very proud of him. He is amazing and I am so proud of him of his courage. We took him out to dinner after the game. He ate half his dinner and then about fell asleep in the booth. He laid his head on my husband's arm and just sat quietly. He slept the entire way home from the restaurant. Poor guy was beat!

My daughter is a cheerleader and no longer cheers for football. She strictly cheers for competitions now. She just made the allstar elite team and we are very proud of her. They just began practices and they look good. I will have to write more once her competitions start. Anyone who says cheerleading is not a sport come talk to me. This is one of the most physical sports I have ever seen. You can not believe how in shape these girls are. I know, when you think of cheerleaders you think of those cute little hardbodies with blonde hair, no brains, and saying rah rah. Well sit down and watch competitive cheerleading for 10 minutes and you will see how amazing these girls are.

I am very proud of both of my children because unlike me they stood up and followed their dreams with amazing courage, when I would sit on the sidelines only wishing I had the guts to go for it.

Friday, September 09, 2005


Writers Block

I have been at a lost for words lately. Last night I posted a story on here and then panicked about it all night. Although, I was too lazy to get out of bed to sign on and delete it. I was very relieved this morning to see no comments. chuckles..... I was not really expecting any but I did not want to offend anyone. The story was raw with no holds barred. I have so many things I would love to put here but even though it is an anonymous I find myself holding back writing here. I wonder if I should write about the alternative lifestyle that I love, my screwed up childhood, or just life. I began this log because I had so many emotions bottled up between losing the one that I thought I loved and losing my best friend who betrayed me, I was at a loss for anyone to talk to and I needed to get it out. I say the one I thought I loved because I have come to realize that love has to be mutual because one sided love is just an obsession. I use to have a stalker online, well maybe not a stalker but someone who just thought he loved me so very much and would never leave me alone. It was an ongoing problem while I was with my ex and he had to step in a couple times to put the guy in his place. Well, I deleted my ID and was finally rid of him. Well... the other day my ex gave the guy my new email, and I received an email from him the other day. I was so shocked, I thought I was done with him. I realized that my ex never loved me it was all a lie. Number one he would have never moved on so very quickly. Now he is in search of the one who completes him but told me he had to devote his time and love to his wife so he had to leave me because he loved me too much. Then he turns around and gives this nutcase my new email. I just can not believe it. I thought he was the most wonderful person and I loved him so much. But now I just think he used me and threw me away. It does not make me grieve any less it only makes me feel stupid and foolish as I grieve. I have found a new home in chat with a new ID and I was hoping to start over completely. I want to put it all in the past. I am beginning to make new friends, well acquaintances that I hope to be friends soon. Now he has begun to come into the chatroom where I am, when he entered the room I almost fell over, he was never in that room before, and since people type so uniquely, I think he realizes it is me. I could not understand why he even showed up there, it is not his normal room. I was sad to see him in there, I never want to see him again. Especially when he is in there flirting like a madman looking for his next victim. Well I sat there quietly waiting for him to leave. Well the next day guess who pops into the chatroom, the friend who betrayed me. I guess they are trying to figure out if it is me or not. I am not sure why they even care if it is me or not, neither want to be in touch with me. I think they will start trouble there for me. The weirdest thing is I know she wants him for herself, and I know he wants her. So maybe they tried it out and it did not work and they remain friends. They have a common bond complete hatred of me and bashing me daily. I am now waiting for their hate to invade where I am now. Oh well I am just about ready to put chatting behind me and forget all of this nonsense. I find myself sitting in the chat room as everyone chats and I am looking at art and fantasy art on the internet or I am reading blogs, so I think I was done with chat a long time ago. I wish I knew how to add the weblogs I frequent onto my profile. There are some wonderful ones that I enjoy immensely and wait for their next entry.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005


FAREWELL to Bob Denver who died
Friday, God Speed to You!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Sunday, September 04, 2005

Cherish nature

Accomplishment and Guilt

WOW what a weekend.... This weekend has welcomed cherish home again. I have spent the past three days totally organizing my life again. I spent all day Friday organizing all my bills, filing my papers, getting my checkbook back in order and cleaning my desk! Then I moved onto catching up with my laundry, dishes, dusting and vacuuming. Then the final chore and the worst one of all, the bathrooms ughhhh!! I am not a big fan of cleaning the bathrooms in the least but today was the day and they are cleaned. I sit here feeling accomplished for the first time in a long time. On the road to hopefully getting my mind and life back in order, because life is short. I feel so guilty feeling sorry for myself when I have so many blessings. My house is standing, my children are fed, healthy and doing well, I am healthy and I am loved by my family. Now I find myself so very angry with me over this self pity funk I have been stuck in. I have so much to be thankful for, I am going to count my blessings each night and be thankful for each and everyone of them.

My prayers and thoughts are with all those suffering from this natural disaster, with all people who are battling an illness or addiction, with all those who have lost loved ones, actually with anyone and everyone who needs them.

Thank you to all my friends new and old for their patience with me and all their support.

Saturday, September 03, 2005

Who's annoyed?

When someone annoys you it takes
42 muscles in your face to frown,
BUT, it only takes 4 muscles to
extend your arm and bitch-slap
the mother fucker upside the head!

Friday, September 02, 2005


I received two jokes today in email. They both made me chuckle so I thought I would post them here.

This first joke was titled a Joke for Marylanders. It seems the sender feels only a true Marylander would appreciate this joke. I thought it was hysterical, but of course I am a Marylander born and raised. So I am curious what people in other states think:

Subject: Only Marylanders (and former Marylanders) would understand...

The day after his wife disappeared in a boating accident, an Ocean City man answered his door to find two grim-faced Maryland State Troopers. "We're sorry Mr. Rice, but we have some information about your wife," said the trooper."Tell me! Did you find her" Willy shouted. The troopers looked at each other. One said, "We have some bad news, some good news, and some really great news. Which do you want to hear first"Fearing the worst, Willy said, "Give me the bad news first."The trooper said, "I'm sorry to tell you, sir, but this morning we found your wife's body in the Assawoman Bay near the Rte 90 Bridge.""Oh my God!" exclaimed Willy. Swallowing hard, he asked, "What's the good news? "The trooper continued. "When we pulled her up she had 12 huge blue crabs and 6 good-size blue crabs on her."Stunned, Willy demanded, "If that's the good news, what's the great news?"The trooper said, "We're going to pull her up again tomorrow".

The next joke is a blonde joke (no offense to blondes, smiles) and football joke!

Out of all the blonde jokes, this one has to be among the best! Football FINALLY makes sense..........

A guy took his blonde girlfriend to her first football game. They had great seats right behind their team's bench. After the game, he asked her how she liked the experience."Oh, I really liked it," she replied, "especially the tight pants and all the big muscles, but I just couldn't understand why they were killing each other over 25 cents."Dumbfounded, her date asked, "What do you mean?" "Well, they flipped a coin, one team got it and then for the rest of the game, all they kept screaming was: 'Get the quarterback! Get the quarterback!' I'm like...Helloooooo? It's only 25 cents!!!!

I hope this will bring a smile to someone's face.

Gas O line

Well gas has hit 3.59 here as of 3pm this afternoon. The lines are forming and the waiting begins. Not sure what happened earlier today, but rumors were flying that the Governor was going to start shutting down gas stations to conserve gas. Well this sent everyone in a complete panic, hence the lines started forming. Well the Governor issued statements saying the rumors were false and he was not shutting down the stations. Who knows? But I am sure there is a case of a government official lying some where right? chuckles.... All I know is when my car get to 3/4 of tank I top it off. The above link is where to find cheap gas in your area. But I think at this juncture it is pointless because the prices are changing hourly. But once it stabilizes I hope it will be help to someone. Of course it did not even list my area.


I am beyond shocked at what is going on in New Orleans. I have watched this disaster nonstop since before it actually happened. Watching Katrina as she grew and grew until she hit. The aftermath has been surreal. I just can not believe it and I find myself watching nonstop. Yesterday, I think I overdosed on it. I can not watch, read or hear about anymore. I feel like I will lose my mind over it. I am praying for the survival of all the victims. I hope they stop hurting each other and trying to hurt the rescuers. I wish for calm, peace and much aid in New Orleans